Glamour Mom

I knew when I had Lillian that there would be a lot of work involved. I knew she would wake up at night and that she would require a lot of attention. I had been told that my life would never be the same and I was aware of the truth related to this statement. However, one thing can be said that should be taken into consideration. Thinking that you know and actually experiencing are two entirely different things.
Actually experiencing functioning off of four hours of sleep on a consistent basis, or being puked on, or constantly washing bottles (and I mean constantly. The bottle washing never ends), or looking at the stretch marks on your stomach and knowing they will never go away, these things are quite different when they are lived than when they are told. I find myself wondering how am I to feel glamorous or attractive when somehow I've turned into the mommy machine. I find myself with my hair piled on top of my head in a ponytail with no makeup on and my sink full of bottles and my laundry room buried in towels, burp cloths, and baby outfits that have been spit up on them.
We've all seen the designer moms on tv that have the perfect bodies two weeks after delivering their babies, and they somehow never seem to have spit up on them, and they most certainly aren't wearing their hair in ponytails and going without makeup. These women seem to morph into hotter versions of themselves after having children. All I have to say is it must take a village.
I guess I'm not the glamour mom I had hoped I would become after having my daughter, but another thing that is entirely different when it is lived than when its told is experiencing the joy that she brings to my life. I don't always get to get a shower when I want one and I'll probably have an audience in the bathroom for the next couple of years. I'll probably never get rid of these stretch marks or ever have a flat belly ever again, but when I hold my daughter in my arms and feel her snuggle up to me I know that it's all ok. I'm special to her and that's by far a more rewarding feeling than any I've ever felt. So I can go to sleep at night and rest easily knowing that I've been blessed enough to be married to a wonderful man that somehow sees past my mommy machine persona to the woman he married, I have a daughter that thinks I'm the best ever, I've got two loyal pets that will protect me from anything, and my family is always there for me. Let them have the designer clothes and super nannies. I'll take my lot anyday.